For the past week or so I have noticed that I have been really tired and sluggish. At first I thought it was because I had been woken up by people screaming outside my window or leaf blowers at 4:30 in the morning, but even when I get undisturbed sleep I feel the same way. I hope that it isn't the anemia making a bold return because it feels very similar.

I notice the most similarity when I am at work because I seem to lose the inside voice/outside voice differentiation. I am snippy and there is limited filtering when I speak. For example, the UPS guy came in this afternoon and had an envelope addressed to Mark Harrelson. Susan signs for it and brings it to me.
This I have never understood because both her and my mom do it, anything from UPS is given to me and put in my inbox. The package or envelope is clearly addressed to a particular person in the office but instead of giving it to the person to whom it belongs it is given to me and I walk the 5 additional feet to give it to the right person. It is just dumb so I questioned Susan as to why she gave it to me and Susan's reply was "I don't want that job".

It isn't a fucking job, it is handing an envelope to someone so get your nose out of the air (incidently, anyone who wears cat earings and vests with cows on them should never get snooty with ANYONE). In my job description it does not say "Hands envelopes to the people they are addressed to". There are 5 people in this office, it isn't hard. If you are that busy that you don't have time to do that then you also shouldn't be calling your husband 5 times a day and walking him thru the grocery shopping and talking about where the dogs were when you last left the house and making sure that he gets up at the right time in the morning.

Anyway, the point is when my iron was low before I was tired for a long period of time without any reason to be, was frequently light headed and was snippy to everyone - which is how I feel now. It is weird though because I haven't been running so I don't know what would cause this. Maybe I should have a steak tonight...

that is not funny, seriously it isn't

I am fuming right now and have no one to vent to but my blog.

So one of our superintendents Mike comes in this morning and the subject of CPR comes up. So Mike says "hey, how do you give CPR to someone who has AIDS" and then he proceeds to make a stomping motion on the floor and everyone laughs. Of course I argue that it isn't funny which is even more hilarious to them. The more appalled I was, the harder they laughed. I tried to explain why that wasn't funny, even though it may seem obvious to most people, and I didn't get anywhere which is even more frustrating. Sometimes we laugh at things without thinking about it and once one realize what it exactly is we are laughing at we correct ourselves but no, they still thought it was funny when he told it again to someone else.

Call me uptight but AIDS just isn't a funny subject to me. What is even better is that I have to drive to Porterville this afternoon with Susan to attend a training. 3 hours in a car with Susan, fucking fantastic.