New opportunities

As I try and decide just what it is I am doing in the construction field, I have also been working with Kendall's uncle on a workshop we will be presenting for California Community College Board members. The workshop is titled "Mastering New Realities through Governance as Leadership" and I will be presenting the communication aspect of leadership in small groups. This is exciting to me because my masters degress is in training and consulting and it is something that I have always been interested in doing. Although I am not getting paid for this, it is a really great opportinity to network and is good experience in this field. Most of the training I have done until this point has been in the context of school or through a class project at school. This will be my first opportunity to do a workshop freelance which is something I want to continue to do in the future. Kendalls Uncle Bill has a lot of connections in the community college districts and has done various traning and consultanting around the world so he is an excellent cpontact for me to have (thank you Kendall!). He has also mentioned doing workshops with me in the future so hopefully he likes the work that I do for this project and it leads to other opportunities.
It is still strange to me that I enjoy doing workshops and training sessions because of my extreme fear I used to have of public speaking. I was terrified of getting up in front of people because I would turn red and get shaky, it was awful. Well when I decided to study communication I inevitably started doing a lot of speaking in front of people and I eventually just got used to it. It still gets my heart racing, but in a good way now.
Oh yeah and I will no longer be posting my training because I found another program. How sad you all must be...

Restless Life Syndrome

Every few months or so I notice that I start to get to feel restless. There is usually no major cause for feeling this way but it creeps up through me and seeps in to pester me for a few weeks. Usually what it centers around is work and career related issues. I never wanted to be the person that sort of accidently settles into something and ends up doing that for the rest of their lives without really enjoying it. I am sure everyone feels this way but it is depressing to think of spending so much of your life doing something you don't really like doing. The problem is, I can never seem to figure out what exactly it is I want to do. Everytime I hear someone say to follow your dreams and don't let anything stand in your way blah blah blah it annoys me because what is it you do when you don't know what your dreams are? Knowing my passion would make things a whole lot easier.

What I do know is that I am awful at paperwork. I seriously suck at it. My attention to detail waivers at best and I get bored and zone out quite frequently. Even though that is the main part of what I am doing now, I have to learn all of the steps and procedures from the bottom up in order to advance into a management position. I don't know if this is really what I want to do, but I won't know that until I start doing it. Sometimes I really just want things figured out but I know as soon as that happens, give me a few months and I won't be satisfied with that either. I don't like being stuck in an office all day and what I like best about my job is when I get to leave and have to run bids or get plans and whatnot. Perhaps a career at UPS is in my future.

Ok enough of my moaning and groaning. Thanks for stopping by. Cheers.